Fear created nervousness from the thought that unemployment with no source of regular income is really here. However, I step out in faith knowing there is a reason other than self-infliction.
Surprise came upon me on the kindness bestowed by people I have never met; and astonishment of the genuine conversations and hugs shared with many friends and acquaintances brought delight.
Anger spurred a slight irritation with a few delays only to realize it didn't really matter that it took several hours to download a book to my iPod through the new laptop; that the loose change needed to be sent off to Brinks or rolled in packages or taken to another bank; or that my CLA credentials expired at 4:45pm before synching my last binder.
Joy produced relief, contentment and optimism. Relief at the thought that there will be no pressing schedule, content with the decision to take this journey, and optimistic that this journey will bring pleasure while meeting new people, seeing new places, enjoying new experiences and catching up with those from my past.
Sadness generated a feeling of disappointment knowing I won't have my regular chats with friends and co-workers coupled with the reality that I won't see my boys either. Then again, technology is amid us--cell phone, Facebook, Blogger, e-mail, Skype here I come.
Love brought the realization that I am forever grateful for the tender, compassionate, caring and wonderful people who continually touch my life. Thank you to all of you!
These emotions bring a feeling of exhaustion; however, excitement exudes me and I'm ready for Venzaliner50 to begin! Oh where is that checklist, I better get busy…
Don't
be dismayed at goodbyes.
A farewell is necessary before you can meet again.
And
meeting again, after moments or lifetime,
is certain for those who are friends. ~Richard Bach
You have such a way with words. 4:45...figures nothing is ever as easy as it should be. I imagine you will even hit a few road bumps on your trip, which will make this experience even more memorable. It will be really lonely looking at your empty desking on Monday morning. Soon you will only have the open road ahead of you. Good luck, best wishes and many prayers are with you. Don't hurry back :)
ReplyDeleteWoohoo, less than 24 hours away and the journey begins! Girl, what grande cojones you have to do this, lol. But I can't think of anyone else I know that could and/or would. I am glad but sad that our friendship just really started to blossom as you leave on this venture, but thankful you have the opportunity to follow your heart and also grateful for all the technology available so we can take a virtual trip right along with you. Be safe, stay strong, God bless. And in the immortal words of Roy Rogers and Dale Evans: "Happy trails to you, until we meet again. Happy trails to you, keep smiling until then. Some trails are happy ones, others are blue. It's the way you ride the trail that counts, here's a happy one for you." Fondly, KP
ReplyDeleteSafe travels and joyful reflections on your journey, Judy! Thanks for sharing with us along the way. You are never alone, thanks to the one who was forsaken by all, even the Father, so we might always be in his grip. (Here endeth the sermon -- Happy Sunday!)
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